When I first got my surgery date I made a list of all the
things I need to do to whip myself into shape.
Here’ what I came up with.
At four weeks I planned to quit coffee. I can’t drink it
during surgery/recovery, and I’ve heard reports that the headache from coffee
withdrawal is intense.
Also at four weeks – daily exercise. I’m pretty good about
it anyway, but I need to make sure that I’m doing something every day. I even
got a brand new bike but I can’t find my helmet, so my wingman/stylist/Jim is
expressively disapproving if I try to go riding sans chapeau.
But there’s yoga, my pilates video, and my job. Dog walking
obviously doesn’t count. Jed, bless his hairy heart, is short limbed. So I try to walk whenever possible.
Why, just today, when I was forced to go to the ‘Wicker Emporium’ I parked my
car as far from the store as possible. Given that it was at a suburban big box mall, it was about 20 kilometres.
At three weeks, I’ve planned to reacquaint myself with
Belleruth Naparstek, and practice daily guided meditations. I truly believe that it is because of
Belleruth, that I woke up calmly from my second surgery. Bellerruth helps me understand that I’m safe
surrendering myself to someone else’s control, and to trust my body. (And my magical friends and allies)
At two weeks I plan to quit drinking. I’m not a total booze-hound, but I
really like a glass of wine with dinner, and I’m sad when I can’t have it.
At one week, I don’t know what’s gong to happen. I might
have a nervous breakdown. But I’ll worry about that later. (My toenails are a priority)
Yum |
So today I woke up and looked into Jed’s droopy bloodshot
eyes. My first thought was ‘Four weeks today!’ I thought of my giant to do list
that includes making soup, buying loose pants, a shower chair, and a
whole bunch of other stuff. My second thought was, ‘I really need a coffee.’
I wish I could
say that this ended well. I wish I
could stay that I had steely resolve. But I didn’t have any resolve. I had a
coffee. And it was delicious.
Oh-oh.
Again.....Hang in there ,Sunshine!!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about the coffee;I'll drink that for you. Same with the wine; it will have to be white, though!! Dr. ZenZen (German wine... Yum!!) preferably!!
And ,as for the nervous breakdown..........I could probably could take a stab at that, if no one else picks up!! Don't want to leave you with a bunch of hangups!! I am not much at excercising so you can keep that!!